Thanks.

Halo, udah lama gue gak ngepost, ya. Males banget loh gue. Padahal banyakkkk banget yang pengen gue ceritain. Banyak hal yang terjadi di bulan ini, rata-rata sedih semua.........

                                                  

Gue single.

Iya. Single.

Gue gak sama dia lagi. Things change, we are not the same. Gue bukan punya dia, dia bukan punya gue. Tapi kalo gue pikir itu emang yang terbaik.

Karena, sejujurnya gue udah capek, dia gamau gue sakit, gue gakuat. Jadi.....ya kita begitu. Banyak yang bertanya kenapa gue bisa putus sama dia. We look alright, but we are not. Dia udah mulai jarang ngabarin, dia kaya ganiat ngobrol sama gue. And actually it hurts. But I can’t do anything. Dia juga udah pernah jujur kalo dia bosen sama gue.

Gue sering curhat sama cewek ter-cimidh di Indonesia. Namanya Syifa. Gue curhat ke dia tentang sesuatu yang gue hadapi waktu itu. Dan dia pun bilang

Lo sama dia tuh masih sama-sama sayang.

 Gue tau lo mau bertahan, gatau deh dianya gimana.

Tapi lo cuma berjuang sendirian, gue kasian sama lo.

Dan setelah Syifa bilang begitu.....gue galau. Entah, gue kalut waktu itu. Bimbang. Bukan bambang.....bambang mah gatau siapa.

Perasaan gue ke dia juga masih sama, meskipun udah berkurang sedikit. Gak sedikit juga sih ya...hmm...gitudeh pokoknya. Buat apa juga perasaan lama masih disimpen, toh dia bukan siapa-siapa gue lagi dan gue juga bukan siapa-siapa dia lagi.

And now......I’m trying to forget all the things. Well, not all of them. I’ll keep some of them. But, yeah...the lessons learned. And I think I will find someone better.

Thanks for all your time.

Thanks for all your attention.

Thanks for all your laugh.

Thanks for being there when I need you.

Thanks for the smile.

Thanks for the tears.

Thanks for the pain.

Thanks for everything.

But most of all, thanks for coming into my life. J

"If you want I’ll take you in my arms and keep you sheltered from all that I’ve   done wrong. But I know God made another one to love you better than I ever will."